sweet perilous

2009-11-28T08:48:00.002+08:00

CLICK ON THE PICTURE

2009-09-06T04:06:00.003+08:00

beneath this debris,
i lay awake.
a problem like this,
has too much at stake.

dont wanna come out.
nor do i wanna stay.
i pray that the dark cloud.
will be blown away.

my future's on the line.
and so is yours.

2009-09-06T03:40:00.001+08:00

Everytime i fall, i'll slowly recover.
but each time i got up, another secret i'll discover.
your little black book; what else's inside?
let me in then you and i'll collide.

2009-09-01T23:48:00.005+08:00

LIKE I SAID, I DON'T GIVE A TINY RAT'S ASS.

HONESTLY, I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT THESE PEOPLE WANT FROM ME. IF THEY REALLY WANT TO HELP ME, FLOODING MY TAG BOARD ISN'T THE WAY TO GO. TWO YEAR OLD SON?? WITH WHO? YOU? IF ANY GIRL IS STUPID ENOUGH TO GET KNOCKED UP, IT'S REALLY NOT MY PROBLEM IS IT??

2009-08-22T23:57:00.008+08:00

For a minute there,

i thought i was on cloud nine.

Are you even listening when i talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes are staring, they're staring right through me. You're right there but it's like you never knew me.

2009-08-21T12:47:00.004+08:00

I've not slept since yesterday and it's almost 1 in the afternoon.
Had another dream that spooked me just now.
Maybe I'm paranoid but it seemed real this time.
I must be going crazy. My head hurts so much yet i wonder why i still can't sleep.
I look in the mirror and see that my eye bags are getting worse. Even nad♥ told me so.

2 UTs has passed. 3 more to go. Met nad♥ and hanzie two days in a row for breakfast (:
I'm so glad i got to meet them.

2009-08-18T21:45:00.005+08:00

Get a load of this. I think Eminem rocks.
Oh ya. If you don't already know.
Mariah Carey's 'Obsessed' is a diss at Eminem's 'Bagpipes From Baghdad'.
Eminem strikes back with 'The Warning'.

[LYRICS]
Only reason I dissed you in the first place is because you denied seeing me,
Now Im pissed off.

Sit back homey relax, infact grab a six pack, kick back while I kick facts,
Yeah Dre sick track, perfect way to get back
Wanna hear something wick wack?
I got the same exact tat thats on Nicks back
Im obsessed now,
Oh gee, is that supposed to be me in the video with the goatee,
Wow Mariah, didnt expect her to go balls out,
Bitch, shut the fuck up before I put all them phone calls out, you made to my house when you was wild n out before Nick,
When you was on my dick and give you somethin to smile about,
How many times you fly to my house? Still trying to count,
Better shut your lying mouth if you dont want Nick finding out,
You probably think cuz its been so long if i had something on you I woulda did it by now,
Oh on the contrary, Mary Poppins, Im mixing our studio session down and sending it to mastering to make it loud,
Enough dirt on you to murder you,
This is what the fuck I do,
Mariah, it ever occur to you that I still have pictures?
However you prefer to do and goes for Nick too, faggot
You think Im scared of you?
You gonna ruin my career you better get one,
Like Ima sit and fight with you over some slut bitch cunt that made me put up with her psycho ass over 6 months and only spread her legs to let me hit once,
Yeah, what you gonna say? Im lucky? Tell the public that I was so ugly that you fucking had to be drunk to fuck me?
Second base? What the fuck you tell Nick, pumpkin?
In the second week we was dry humping. Its gotta count for something,
Listen, girly. Surely you dont want me to talk about how I nutted early 'cos ejaculated prematurely and bust all over your belly, and you almost started hurling and said I was gross, go get a towel youre stomachs curling.
Or maybe you do.
But if Im embarrassing me, Im embarrassing you and dont you dare say it isnt true.
As long as the songs getting airplay Im dissing you.
Im a hair away from getting carried away and getting sued.
I was gonna stop at 16. That was 32. This is 34 bars. We aint even third of the way through.
Damn, Slim. Mariah played you. Mariah who?
Oh did I say whore, Nick? I meant a liar too.
Like Ive been goin off on you all this time for no reason,
Girl you out ya alcholic mind. Check ya wine cellar. Look at all the amounts of all the wine,
Like I fuckin sit around and think about you all the time,
I just think this shit is funny when I pounce you on a rhyme.
But fuck it now im about to draw the line.
And for you to cross it thats a mountain that I doubt you wanna climb.
I can describe areas of your house you wouldnt find on an episode of Cribs,
A blow below the ribs if I hear another word so dont go opening your jibs cos every time you do its just another load of fibs,
I aint saying this shit again, ho, you know what it is.
Its a warning shot for I blow up ya whole spot,
Call my bluff and Ill release every fucking thing I got,
Including the voicemails right before you flipped your top,
When me and Luis were tryin to stick two CDs in the same spot,

(Slim Shady I love you)
I love you too
Let me whisper sweet nothings into your ear, boo. Now what you say?
(Its nothing)
Yeah so what Ill do?
Is refresh your memory when you said I want you
Now should I keep going or should we call truce?
(You think youre cute, right? Hahaha)
You bet your sweet ass I do
(Im Mary Poppins, b)
And Im Superman, ooo
(Mary P. Slim Shady)
Comin at you
So if youll still be my (babygirl)
Then Ill still be your (Superhero, Wilma M.)
Yeah, Im right here
(You like this)
Nope. Not anymore, Dear.
It cuts like a (knife) when I tell ya get a (life)
But Im movin on with mine
Nick, is that your (wife)
Well tell her to shut her mouth then Ill leave her alone,
If she dont (sing this script?) then Ima just keep goin.
(I see Mary Ann. Mary Anns saying cut the tape, cut the tape. Knife!)

2009-08-18T07:22:00.009+08:00

I have been M.I.A for days now.
I swear I'm really tired living like this.
I can't sleep. I'm always afraid.

I miss hanging out, laughing at stoopid jokes and just talking to Naddy♥
I miss my lunch dates with Farah.
I miss those Tuesdays with Aza.
I miss slumbering with Nisa
I miss talking to Fanah.
I miss my retards.(che, atiq, vin).
I miss four months ago when there was 4.
I miss sleeping at night.

Girls! meet up soon okay??

2009-08-18T06:47:00.004+08:00

17th August '09

Happy Birthday to you ;)

2009-08-08T06:57:00.004+08:00

6am in the morning and im still awake,
thinking about all of my latest mistakes.
can't you tell how i feel when you look in my eyes?
or how hard i tried to avoid all those criticize.

you sure as hell are not making things easier.

2009-08-05T20:37:00.004+08:00

i've lost the desire to blog.
i feel so miserable today.
i can go put my head in the oven now.
or go visit the white tiger.

what the hell is wrong with me?
i want sleeping pills to help me sleep but the doctor wont let me.
something about disrupting "my dream sleep". pfft!

i'll always wake up late. as a result, i will skip school.
since i had that dream,
i get freaked out by darkness and will only be comfortable sleeping after a ray of sunlight peeks through my window. by then, i will only have less than 2 hours left to sleep.
i tell myself i could wake up but i don't.

Mr sandman, if you exist and you are reading this, please come and visit me;(
i need to sleep a night. but please don't be the creepy type.
come wearing a big red bow with a big bright smile.
i am soooooo looking forward to meeting naddy dearest tomorrow.
so much to talk about. ily.imy.

still.................................. it's bothering me.

2009-08-01T03:19:00.008+08:00

you know what? i got an anonymous call from some girl yesterday.
okay. never mind. it's all over.
it's funny that i posted this song a few weeks back when i knew nothing.
but this song really means something. the one by jay sean.

i can never see you the same way.
im utterly disappointed.
im numb.
my hands hurt.
my heart wont speak.
my eyes ran out of tears.
I'll let it pass.
I'll hold my tongue.

i don't know how to face my friends.
i don't want to hear "i told you so!".
turns out, it all true.

ps: edited.thanks hanze;)

2009-07-20T03:00:00.005+08:00

My poor mommy has been sick for almost two weeks now and i have been going crazy trying to keep the house as tidy as possible. My sister busy working. Lucky i have nice neighbours who sends us food. It's not easy being a mother of 5 okay. Imagine what it would be like if i were to have that many children. So i made an oath. I will have two kids and that's it! One boy and one girl.

Preferably twins so i won't have to go through labor more than once. [pikir jauh! haha]
Okay back to topic. My nenek and mak long came to visit my mother yesterday. I couldn't stop cleaning the whole day. Something was always not right. But it's okay. Can everyone who reads this say " Ya Allah, mintak2 mak mira cepat baik. Amin." Then recite al-fatiha also okay.

I have trouble sleeping early. I don't know why i just don't feel good after midnight. So i would only sleep when the sun light peeks through my bedroom window. Could it be?

p.s: get well soon mother );

2009-07-18T02:49:00.005+08:00

Okay so Thursday night wasn't really the best birthday celebration i've been to.
Reason number one being, i was the youngest and i don't drink like the rest of them.
[im a virgin drinker]
Reason number two was, i am too young to be going to the place where they were going. Some place called ipanema or something like that. Apparently, im supposed to be above 21 and guys should be above 25. [i knoww right???]
Number three, i really dislike this one person. I shall not mention names but i think he/she spoiled the whole thing. Plus two people were wasted and it's irritating when that happens.
So, we chilled somewhere near Forum and went back at about three.
Fore more pictures, click here.

And yes. Happy 29th birthday to Kak Maz:)

A very good night to all my royal subjects.
[all hail queen myra!!]
hahahahahaha:)

2009-07-15T13:59:00.007+08:00

fallen angel; or so i thought

random-ness

these were the pictures taken in web-multimedia module last friday.
these two were my pictures favorite :)

2009-07-11T22:33:00.011+08:00

On thursday, Azzah and I accompanied Farah to the airport to send Fitri off to Bali. We only got to see him for a few minutes as we arrived quite late. We had dinner at teminal one Popeye's.

Naddy was supposed to join us but she was too exhausted from her psycology camp so we postponed the meeting. We then headed back to Woodlands for ice creams at Causeway Point MacDonald's. I actually felt sorry for the ice cream guy. The two chikla'aks hid the poor guy's balloon pumpand he was looking everywher for it. Jahat eh korang! We couldn't stop laughing and i think he was a little pissed at us. He kept staring at Azzah. It's either that or he likes Azzah. Haha! I enjoyed my Thursday:)

Firday night, went clubbing with Nad, Hanze and Yat. Like finally! I met her! It's been how long? Two? Three weeks? I missed her a lot. I hate it when the club is crowded, suffocating! Especially when you cant even move that much. The girls there were vastly outnumbered, so that makes it even more irritating. Lucky for us, Hanze, Yat and Aaron were there to protect us. (We bumped into Aaron outside the club and he joined us in Rebel.) Sooo, thank you guys:)

Everyone was so hyped up and we all went crazy. We club hopped from Zirca to Rebel and back again. Breakfast at McDonald's and went home at 6. And i realized one thing! Guess what it is?

Pardon the picture quality. No one brought their camera so i used my very lousy camera phone.

2009-07-08T01:25:00.005+08:00

A lot of people have been complaining to me that my blog is very boring.
I put up the poems I MADE UP on my blog so that people will appreciate it and at least give me some comments on what i should improve. 98% of the poems all i make one okayy!! I very emo mahhh! what to do. Well, i think now, I've passed my emotional stage and chikla'aks! here i come!

I'm looking forward to this Friday's gathering with my lovely sisters and also going to airport with Farah on Thursday to send her boyfriend to Bali. Farah don't emo okay. Kiter sume sayyaaaannng kau! haha. It's just one week. not one year. haha. Fitri tak hilang. He will be back with souveniers for us. KAN FIT?? haha.
Later, im gonna go out with my RP darlings to celebrate makcik Tiqa's birthday. Skipping school (again)! Haiyo. But I'm sure it'll be worth it.

On the 16th, i'll be partying hard with my sister to celebrate Kak Maz's birthday. Im gonna spend a lot of money this month. And i don't even know what to wear yet!

I'll be slaving in the kitchen till dawn. Poor mommy, i can't let her do it alone.

PS: i miss Nadiah Bte Mohd Salihin ):

2009-07-08T01:03:00.009+08:00

your senses, crippled.
your mind, fickle.
you have no dignity,
let alone insanity.

you have pride you say?
well i think you've been led astray.
delusional; that's what you are.
preaching about moving on but here you are.

Just when i thought you couldn't stoop any lower,
you made another scene that only brings us closer.
but guess what? i'll turn the other cheek.
seriously,cause you're so not worth it.

.amyrah.

2009-06-25T20:56:00.002+08:00

To all my friends/family, if you're reading this and you still love me,
Please holla at me so i know you're still alive.

2009-06-25T20:16:00.001+08:00

Weakness strikes.
Fidelity consumes.
Tried taking in stride,
but effort goes up in fumes

With visions obscured.
Yet again she wonders;
Was she more secured?
Or was this another blunder?

2009-06-22T10:54:00.004+08:00

Encrypted words within these lines.
When she thought she'd left all her memories behind.
She kept it all in her anecdotes,
now its left for you to decode.

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She gazed up upon the cobalt sky.
Where storm clouds gathered, way up high.
Embracing power of nature's force.
To survive; she had only one choice.

Whipping winds cleanse the deepening doubt.
Her conscience speaks, "choose one, or be left without! ".
Darkness falls as she vents her spleen,
so frustrated to be caught in between.

She wondered how she got her there,
and how much more was she willing to bear.
Unvoiced sobs escapes without a sound.
Untold joys of inner peace abound.

She raised her arms in a soulful appeal.
Summoning strength which was long thought unreal.
Waiting for the rainbow to emerge,
but with everything else she harbored, slowly submerged.

2009-06-22T05:05:00.005+08:00

Happy father's day!

Thank you for being my pillar of strength
I love you very very much and you're the best father any daughter could ask for.
I love you Ayah.
Hope you liked the surprise:)

2009-06-22T04:50:00.005+08:00

Happy 20th birthday to Muhammad Azril bin Azman.
For the things you taught me, for the things you shared.
I thank you.

2009-06-18T00:00:00.003+08:00

That one person who had my back through it all.
The only one I trust to catch me when I fall.
Who stood by me in my times of needs.
Who heard my cries when i had to weep.
Shared little jokes with, that only we could understand.
Since thirteen, she had been my bestest best friend.

2009-06-11T01:39:00.010+08:00

There are days when life rewards us and seem to make amends.
By granting us a marvelous gift, the precious gift of friends.

will elaborate more soon:)
watch the videos.

Video 1
Video 2
Video 3
Video 4

2009-06-10T01:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARHANAH SALLEH!
gue sayang banget sama loe!

2009-06-09T22:03:00.003+08:00

Listen to this song and read the lyrics.
It's not my type of song.
But someone asked me to listen to it and i felt a little pinch.

2009-06-09T03:42:00.004+08:00

OVERDUE PICTURES

My favorite photo with my favorite person:)

I don't know if i am allowed to upload all the pictures but i'll do it anways:)
If you're unhappy, please tag/text me.

2009-06-09T03:20:00.013+08:00

Had FYP meeting with the chikiddies at Jurong East Library.

Headed to Jurong Point for dinner and desserts.
And guess who i saw??
S!! I saw him with a 'friend' (;
I'm happy for him.

We had no plans after that so we decided to do something stupid.
Wanna know what?
We went to Fairprice and pretended to shop.
We pushed the trolley round and round the supermarket.
We made Ah-vin push the trolley and placed sanitary pads, pampers, toilet paper rolls, under wear and more!

We then put all the stuffs back and headed to Swensens for dessert.
Retarded? Tell me something i don't already know. I had fun misbehaving today (:

2009-06-08T15:52:00.005+08:00

Unwanted?

I guess all my past shenanigans are catching up on me.

This feeling is overwhelming.
I almost cried when i found out from Naddy.
Almost, but i did not.
Well it still kinda hurts.

2009-06-05T06:46:00.006+08:00

Just came back from Zirca with nad,nafi,kin and yat.
I pity them. They must be so tired. Especially naddy.
My poor nadear:(
i'll upload more pictures once i get them .

i'm loving this song!
listen and enjoy!

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even.

Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even no.

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

2009-06-04T06:10:00.002+08:00

it's 7.19 and i'm not asleep

for the record,
im still here:)
you're still my number one.

2009-06-04T04:13:00.001+08:00

Pictures from Zirca 29th may.
Went there with Azril to support his cousin Paula who was one of the 10 finalist.
Such a shame that she didn't win.
If you were there, you would know why
Some girls,i tell you, i don't even know how they got into top 10.
Oh well.. It's over.
So here goes.

i have to admit that their family's awesome.

super friendly/outgoing (once they started talking that is)

2009-05-23T03:17:00.004+08:00

Deep down, she's a wreck.
Just hoping to get her life back on track.
Everything she does just don't seem right,
through her smile she hides her plight.

Every night her tears will roll.
With every might, but she cant control.
All that make sense, bursting like bubbles,
and now she feels so vulnerable.

All her dreams seems so far away,
dissipating like smoke as she twirls and sways.
She pictured herself a few times before,
thoughts raced her mind, as she tries to explore.
She cries for help and reaches out;
for a hand to hold through her times of doubt.

But every time there's a pair of hands,
a slap so tight, on her face it lands.
Hoping for a rebound her cry grows faint,
praying to god to take away her pain.

She contemplates suicide, but she don't want to die.
As she hits the floor, she curls up and lie.
She distant herself from absurdity,
As she tries to catch up with reality.

2009-05-23T03:10:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday to my dearest 'Azzah!!
i love you very much..
MWAHHHHS!!

2009-05-21T15:03:00.004+08:00

I'm all out of my elements, crying, trying to figure out where the hell i went wrong.
the pain reflected here's not even half of what i'm feeling inside

2009-05-20T14:01:00.009+08:00

I never thought I'd still be here. Didn't i make it very clear?
All the knots we had severed, Shouldn't you be outta here?

Thrust you with faith , you betrayed me. Such a fool, forever I'll be.
Hurting inside, slowly i wither. From the past, the present or hereafter.

Time for some soul searching

2009-05-19T15:36:00.008+08:00

Met up with my girls after school and chilled at starbucks.
headed to nisa's and went home at about 12.
We talked about secondary school days. From Mrs Koh, to our dark histories, to hockey, to major crushes, and of course... our past school sweethearts.
Some i dont even recall.

i have no more strength to go trough this, sick and tired of being pushed around.
don't look down on me and quit being a bloody hypocrite.

2009-05-14T15:25:00.005+08:00

My dreadful daily routine
-go to school (sent by father)
-after school, FYP (if there is)
- go home (fetched by father)

- afternoon nap -wake up at about 9-11 pm and complete RJ
-my everyday chores (ironing and helping mommy cook) without fail
- watch some youtube and go back to sleep after 3 am

dreary much? tell me about it!

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i miss my AFN girls,the old us when we can go crazy and couldn't care less about what other people think. the old us before this stupid thing started. the old us when we would sit in a circle crying and pouring our heart out at the PCCG corner/library/or wherever. the old us who used to make me laugh till i cried. the old us sitting in the library and have a fating/burping contest. the old us who used to scold me whenever i made a bad judgement on boys. i miss us! i really really miss US.. [even though they always made fun of me and how i always spoil our pictures i miss them]
i miss nadear:(
i miss going out and meeting up with naddy dearest and hanjie bee bee and yat(timah?) after work :(
i miss squeezing hanzie's moobies:)
i miss feeling like a part of a team (was i ever?)
i miss making random plans and hanging out till my father calls to reprimand me
i miss feeling all fluttery inside [feeling loved ]
i miss being daddy's little girl and crying non-stop over nothing till he persuade me to stop

above all, i miss you

2009-05-11T02:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY AFN DAY MY LOVELIES!!

one by one
everyone's drifting apart.

2009-05-06T15:19:00.003+08:00

i hate today's class.
i hate it when people try to act smart and smoke their way through
when they do not even know anything

then speak chinese about me some more!

think i dont know uh??

silly buggers!

2009-05-06T12:25:00.007+08:00

Highlights of the week

Labour day with gfs was fun
although i had to parade around with my stupid laptop in the hot sun

more pictures, go to nisa's blog

siti! you should have been there..
watched 17 again [again] with jannah
and met her friends afterwards
what a small world, they're best friends with N2
lots of awkward moments
-__-

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watched FRIDAY THE 13th with naddy on monday.
we screamed to the gore scenes.
lots of tits flashing.
my favourite scene is when jason killed the asian guy with the screw driver
cool shit!

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the rest of the days?
school!

i can safely say im over you

2009-05-02T22:04:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to you!!
thanks for everything:)

2009-04-30T22:51:00.006+08:00

watched HORSEMEN with hanze yesterday.
disgusting show! i hate violence.
(i want world peace!)
had a chance to meet naddy after that but we didn't
i miss her:(

went to farah's to chill after school today.
tried to complete my ERD but there is not much i could do due to limited resources.

sooooooo we decided to disturb nisa with no-motive phone calls
and we knocked on her window(muahahaha!)
(but i doubt she felt disturbed at all-_-)

it's been so long since i really talked about you-know-who
(this somebody who's my nobody as he got somebody new)

and i realized one thing............

farah, i guess you're right..
it's better to not know:(
i read his profile.

naddy! i miss you.. when can meet for movie?

2009-04-29T14:02:00.004+08:00

so please, go away.

2009-04-28T14:46:00.003+08:00

had a bizarre dream last night
i was a super sexy ass-kicking ninja.
i remembered having 3 other ninjas with me.
one of them is Amanda Seyfried from 'MAMA MIA'
i cant recall the other two
and nisa! you were a techno geek!
you provided us with all the information from your computer through a little transmitter
naddy was still my best friend, i remembered confiding in her about something.
(superheroes can be sad too)

80% of the dream, we were climbing the golden gate bridge chasing after someone.
awesooomme!
i could have sworn, i felt an adrenaline rush
jumping and running on the bridge.
it was surreal!

how i wish..........

2009-04-28T01:40:00.008+08:00

Hands held tight,
showing off that you're mates.
Putting me in this plight,
with that smirk she emanates.

Well it seems,
there is a price to pay.
In your dreams,
that's where i shall stay.

Let's hope this ends well,
we'll call this a truce.
No one shall dwell,
at least we know the truth.

For that other you,
i'm doing fine.
There's nothing you can do,
my heart is still mine.

2009-04-27T12:49:00.009+08:00

is this instinct?

is this paranoia?

my emotions extinct.
nothing left, not even euphoria.

what's in your head.
im dying inside.
left to contemplate,
you're nowhere in sight.

excruciating pleasure,
with a mix of pressure.
the word is out,
you and i? never.

two thousand four,
still in the league.
not from your nature.
future looks bleak

but nonetheless,

i will set sail,

i will brave the hail.

i will survive,

i will prevail.

2009-04-27T01:39:00.008+08:00

maybe i'll learn something,

maybe i will not.

inside i am crumbling,

left in this place to rot.

just one of those days
where nothing seems to harmonize
with these three ways,
maybe you'll hear my hymn.

*self-compromising*

im sorry naddy:(

2009-04-22T21:32:00.003+08:00

you're not worth it

i miss you..

2009-04-22T02:40:00.001+08:00

we have each other and that's all that matters.
i love u so freaking much:)

good night.

2009-04-21T16:53:00.001+08:00

im moody, messy. i get restless and its senseless.

why should i even care?

2009-04-21T14:56:00.004+08:00

this woman is psycho. azril?? azril who??
oh, that jerk??
they're such inhuman people.
killed two lives and so proud of themselves.
i disturbed you?? since when??
go fuck yourself!

2009-04-21T01:12:00.005+08:00

saturday's sheesha session with garuda people was fun especially when it's free

haha
thanks abg wan(:
we're all gonna miss you

and to IQBAL/ben 10/alien , happy 24th birthday!!

and yes, friends(:

2009-04-20T16:15:00.004+08:00

feeling crappy right now
no mood to upload picture

i need red bull
FYP in a few minutes. sian liow.

i guess not.

2009-04-18T06:14:00.002+08:00

sleep deprived:(
waking up at 8 am later.
will i be able to??

i feel you naddy..

2009-04-17T02:26:00.005+08:00

yesterday was great..
i love my sister + my bestfriend

going swimming!! adios amigos!

2009-04-13T03:33:00.006+08:00

SS with nadear today

met up with hanjie and yat during break and ate desserts.
YUMMY!

later that night,
all worn-out

***updated pictures from bowling entry***

the 'macam-paham' people

that's how badly we did okayyy!

N: naddy
M: mira
H: hanze

worst part?
i scored the lowest
eventho i cheated
-.-

reeking shoe!
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i love you! all of you!!!
goodnight!

2009-04-11T06:19:00.001+08:00

seriously.. who am i trying to fool??

2009-04-10T18:57:00.010+08:00

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command
-alan watts

3 words
8 letters
that's all i needed to hear

2009-04-10T15:53:00.006+08:00

one more thing......

Mr P.. this one's for you for hurting OUR baby..

and that other you.. for.. you know what..

2009-04-10T06:49:00.009+08:00

out with my afn darlings (minus aza)
aza better come next time okay no more excuses
get over it already

okay so we met around 2
nad and i brought the cake and surprised fanah
(yang da lame nk mampos tak jumpe)

okay. so we celebrated 5 days in advanced
tapi fanah still happy kan fanah kan? kan? kan?

for more pictures pls go to nis's blog

we went off at abt 6 to catch the last shuttle bus
naddy and i headed to CWP watch KNOWING with nafi+yat
like finally -.-

2009-04-09T02:13:00.011+08:00

met up with naddy and hanze today

shopped a bit at paragon and heeren
headed to marina square for BOWLINGGG!
we were all noobs and our ball kept going into the drain
but it was fun!!

pictures will be uploaded once hanze passed me the photos
(cepat2 siket eh hanjie henchem!)

hanze was our boss for the day , we cant bully him or naddy wont get the adapter
so we played nice.. REEAAALLLL nice i tell you.
it wasn't easy okaayyy!

suppose to be our muke garang but as usual, tak menjadi

hanjie henchem a.k.a hanzie beebee who abandoned us at 9 to go meet his friend:(

ps: i love my best friend :)

2009-04-06T01:59:00.009+08:00

before and after
our new franklini & frankulu poses
there was nobody in the train
so yea, this was what we did..

worked ss with my nadear today.
we were late coz i was late (as usual)
im just happy that i spent my day with her.
she's the bestest of the best

i love my nadear.

2009-04-04T01:49:00.003+08:00

alot going on lately.
too many reasons not to tell.
but i wont do it any other way.

met up with the guys just now.
nad,nafi,yat,kin,qoo,nal and aisyah (kin's very pretty friend)
i dont know why i'll get very high when there's a lot of ppl around me
sorry nafi. i think i went a little too overboard about you moobs
tapi seriously, shiok lah!!
and thank you guys for inviting me.
hehe

i think i had my share of laughs today.
though 50 percent of the time i'll be laughing at my own jokes
coz nad wasnt around to back me up
-.-

kin,qoo,nal,nad,nafi,yat ajak lah aku klua banyak2 eh.
haha.
tak malu nyer miraaaaa!
but its okay. everybody can tell that im falling for them:)

i miss my girlsss ):

2009-03-31T01:46:00.003+08:00

just finished watching CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC
it was HILARIOUS!! i loved it
Isla Fisher is adorable
i liked the interview scene
recommended! must watch!

chilled at starbucks with nadear and aza.
webcam-ed with nis and her bantal busuk
lawa la tu eh nis!
now nis got new eye candyyyy((:
glad you're moving on
you deserve so much more than that policeMEN

went back at 11

an hour of mad rush!
reached home and had to help out straight away!
no time to even change.
working tomorrow
i think they trying to separate me and nad:(

ps: laptop dah nazak!

2009-03-30T04:29:00.007+08:00

okay clubbing with nadnalyqinafi was FUN!!!
went to powerhouse and rebel
i really enjoyed myself in their company.
thanks for asking me along aite=)

oh! before clubbing, we went karaoke first..

so that explains the other pictures.

and these are some pictures of the previous outings

just got them from hanze.. sooo enjoy.

dont ask me why nafi's pic not inside. he only sent me these.
okay bye!

2009-03-28T02:37:00.004+08:00

alright.. so here goes..
had a slumber party at nis's place on Tuesday.
we had soo much fun together..
we did a few mischievous things
we took a looot of pictures and we had a looong talk..
to nisa, be strong okay, we're all here for u..

sorry nis.. i cant find the pic you sent me.. copy paste je eh..
haha. jangan marahhh.. biler nie nk gi swimming?????

2009-03-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

i felt really sad just now.
stupid boss just abandoned me like that
no pay
nowhere to go
i really hate gg home early

jogged alone and felt much better afterward
i told 'S' the truth, that i wanna take things slow
i felt guilty of course but nad assured me that there is no other way
i dont know what got into me
i just cant feel anything anymore
not towards anyone
numb, disoriented, distorted

do i even have a heart?

2009-03-19T19:25:00.007+08:00

i love my yesterday
it was the last day for the suntec convention
yeay! no more waking up at 5 am in the morning!
after work, nadear and i met up with our body guards( haha!)
(hanze and yat)
ate at arab street and went for sheesha after that

there were foot, hand, head and back massages
we took turns massaging each other
played cards and had a "tell-the-truth" session
went home at abt 10.30

im know what im supposed to do now. im no longer confused. i have the answer.
im shutting all doors.

(i'll get over you)

2009-03-17T23:52:00.002+08:00

i feel bad that i dont feel bad
make sense?

MAYBE it'll go away soon
MAYBE i'll be able to eliminate it
MAYBE.. JUST MAYBE..

2009-03-17T23:39:00.003+08:00

watched RACE TO WITCH MOUNTAIN after work
nad and i missed 30 mins of the movie -_-
i dont quite get it but its okay

working at the BIOTECH convention was less tiring than working at MACQUARIE
as we dont have to report too early and there is always work to do
i dont really like lunch though
very lame!

2009-03-17T00:42:00.002+08:00

Outside catering at MFA today
met nadear, nafi and yat after that
we ate at ayam penyet.
what a waste coz i wasn't hungry

i had fun with them
-we went to suntec for briefing
-wasted time at Marina Square
-ate ice cream at the old shaw house
-walked to bugis
-went home

took dozens of pictures and went crazy

hanafi! tangan aku lebam okay!! HUMPH!
you watch out!

2009-03-17T00:35:00.003+08:00

3 more long tiring days to look forward to.
look forward too??
u kidding right?
haha.

perhaps that's all i needed to know..
a straight yes or no
i should fight this feeling if its not real
BUT.........
would i be able to??

2009-03-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

i feel wierd
i hate feeling like this
should i tell?
or should i play along?
that feeling is getting the best of me
im distorted.

or is there another factor why im feeling this way?
god help me.

2009-03-16T01:11:00.004+08:00

i think i was sleep-talking(??) yesterday
wanna know why?
its coz of the stoopid movie
hahaa. i feel so kental.
popcorn literally flew when i saw the face
its a stupid movie
very very very stupid
i hate horror movies
seriously hate it.
and im not the only kental one coz yat also covering his face

i enjoyed working with NADEAR+nafi+yat
how i wish.......................
never will be i guess
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.
.
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highlight of the event was
-hanafi's steam kero face
haha.
aku nk tgk lagi nafi!

after the scrumptious lunch
plus some shiok sendiri moments

another event coming up frm 17-19 march
i'll be doing it with nadear
yeay!!
i love my bestfriend

nite2 world!

2009-03-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

i skipped work today
stayed home the whole day

yesterday, i went out with kakak
ate lunch at breeks then went home

there will be a briefing tomorrow at raffles 6pm
im looking forward to the ushering duty from 12 -14 march
but have to wear formal
i dont have anth to wear liao
how??
buy? no money
borrow? from who?

haha. nvm, i'll find a way
goodnight everyone

hanafi! kau cacat! haha

2009-03-08T01:13:00.001+08:00

i got a job at a gym doing data entry
the job was pretty simple and the pay was worth it
its based on work done and i only completed mine halfway and got 50 bucks from the manager
yeay!

watched BLOODY VALENTINE and WATCHMEN last night
BLOODY VALENTINE 3D was great but it really was not my type of movie
there was a lot of killing and all very gruesome
i guess that's why it is M18
i dislike the ending though
i hate it when good, handsome guys turn out to be the culprit

WATCHMEN however, sucked!!
i totally detest it
a waste of 2 and a half precious hours
but then again, it was a smart movie coz of the neil armstrong scene
that's the only part i liked

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to my dearest sister
she turned 21 on the 7th of march
i got her an ESCADA perfume coz she got the watch she wanted from her colleagues

2009-03-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

gym with Nadear today.
super exhausting
but i think it was worth it

fetched hanze at the airport last night
the first thing i said when i saw him was :
" hanafi dah gelap!! "

welcome back dum2!

2009-02-28T15:34:00.002+08:00

My life is over!
i failed miserably and im too scared to inform my parents.

2009-02-25T00:08:00.006+08:00

i dont know what has gotten into me
i think i cant hold on to one thing for too long
maybe i just like the thrill of getting there but once im there,
i dont want it anymore

is there something wrong with me?
or is it something that everyone goes through
whatever it is, i dont want anymore breakages

please let this feeling be temporary
please

2009-02-24T23:31:00.007+08:00

i just finished watching the mall copso clear! haha. anyone jealous?the movie is not even released yet.i give it one thumbs up.why just one?coz the intro a lil bit draggy and the hero not handsome.lol.

watched role models with nad and yat a few days backit was HI-LA-RIOUS!worth it and recommended.

he's just not that into you was a little slow and a little confusingreason being; too many charactersall in all, a good movie.

i did absolutely nothing today.i slept almost half the day, my date with nadear postponed to tomorrow.but it'll be a short date as she got tuitioni dont know why dont get to work together anymore.its unfair
seriously..

2009-02-14T23:36:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

a blue rose magically appeared at my doorsteps at the stroke of midnight
and with it, there was a pica-blue ( a blue pickachu )
the idea was that the pica-blue was the guardian for my flower
cool huh?
there was a note and a glass jar decorated with sweet poems
haha.. many many thanks to my mystery stalker.
not a mystery anymore but i wont reveal it here.

good night world.

2009-02-13T18:47:00.003+08:00

well.. what's new?
i would say NOTHING..

the plan that i have REALLY been looking forward to had to be postponed due to unforeseen circumstances
i still have not bought my phone and my hair? unchanged.
no. its not the money. i have been working my ass off but i just cant lay my finger on where i should do my hair or what phone should i get.
excuses?
i thought so too.

i procrastinate a lot.
well maybe i should stop planning then?

ps:i miss my best friend

2009-01-24T03:23:00.002+08:00

its 3.30 am in the morning and im bored to death
i have been talking about doing something to my hair for months now
what should i do to it?
any suggestions?
anyone?
okay..
i'll give options

1. cut it short.. maybe 3 inches above the shoulders
2. soft rebonding with bangs
3. curl it.. keeping the length
4. nothing

i'll do it somewhere during february
or perhaps i'll procrastinate again

i miss my best friend
she started working again
congrats to her

2009-01-21T03:01:00.005+08:00

met nadear again today.
she accompanied me to the woodlands central
headed to cwp again after that and we watched 'Eden Lake'
an M18 movie!
( my first M18 movie after turning 18 officially )
but i wouldnt recommend it
seriously
i hate unhappy endings
haha
subsequently, we went to starbucks
got a free caramel from Luqman
we vowed not to ever make fun of him anymore
he was so nice to us
thanks Luqman!

i think i flunked my web application module
haiyo.. im so worried about my results
i just hope that i dont have to repeat my modules

i love my best friend

2009-01-19T09:04:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JANNAH JALIL!!

went swimming after school with nadear, nafi, yat
went to causeway point with qin, Q and nal
i had so much fun with them
its like being a kid again
playing games
being silly
it all reminds me of camping in secondary school
in conclusion, i love having them around

2009-01-19T08:55:00.002+08:00

watched seven pounds with supi yesterday
i recommend you to watch it..
it's super nice and very sad
but you must really concentrate so you'll understand the movie

" Once, Tim Thomas (Will Smith) was a gifted aerospace engineer with a beautiful wife and a lovely beach house. Then, while using his cell phone while driving, his car wandered across lanes and he became responsible for the deaths of 7 others, including his beloved wife. Unable to forgive himself or raise the dead, Tim sets out to give "pounds of flesh" that will give new life to seven deserving individuals to make up for the seven lives he destroyed. Just as Antonio would have to die to pay Shylock the "pound of flesh" he demands, Tim intends to kill himself to atone for his sins. His brother Ben (Michael Ealy), who works for the IRS, is deeply concerned about his state of mind. Tim steals his brother's IRS ID to access the IRS database and to find and meet people who he believes worthy of his gifts which includes body organs and material possessions. Holly Apelgren (Judyann Elder), Ezra Turner (Woody Harrelson), Connie Tepos (Elpidia Carrillo) and Emily Posa (Rosario Dawson) are among those whom he identifies to help. Furthermore, Tim assumes his brother's identity of "Ben Thomas" to personally investigate these people and verify that they are indeed the right people he should help. He has a plan for when he identifies his 7 beneficiaries that requires his best friend Dan (Barry Pepper) to see that his wishes are carried out after he is dead. Tim's plan threatens to unravel when he begins to fall in love with one of the people he is trying to help. "

had a good time
i miss my best friend
are we meeting tmr?

2009-01-19T08:41:00.003+08:00

16 January

the beginning of the day sucked coz mommy was so naggy today.
reason being, i didnt go to school.

went out with kakak
we spent over 300 bucks on stuffs and i didn't fork out a single dime.
how cool is that?
i love my KAKAK=)
we went out arnd 7pm (so so late)
but guess what??
we managed to go to 3 shopping malls in 3 hours
in that time, we bought 2 bags, 4 tops and 2 bottoms
and a few other small stuffs.

2009-01-10T00:28:00.001+08:00

im sooo sorry u guys..
i bailed out at the last minute.
see, i had some conflicts gg on and i was not allowed out of the house
really sorry to my AFN darlings..

2008-12-31T04:38:00.002+08:00

well, what do u know?
2009 already huh?
there's a lot gg on but none that i can talk abt..
i guess things better be left unsaid right?

i met nadear just now.
i really missed her.
we didn't do much today.
we met and bought a few stuffs at cwp
head down to the NLB
and went straight home.
.chilled.
.watch tv.
.talked.

that's abt it..

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and dearie, im here for u.. i'll always be..

mwah!!

2008-12-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

im like so fucking pissed off
how could they do this to me?
are they tryna get me into a fight with an innocent girl??
shit! those ungrateful son of a bitch
im sorry but u just lost my respect
thanks for nothing!

2008-12-13T00:33:00.009+08:00

pictures from airport

the afn hugnadnalyqinafi hug

shik being herself

far.fan.nis

the guy who said i was gg 'sawah'

add for sunsilk(:

2008-12-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

Have a safe trip you two!
i'm sure gonna miss you both very much
come back in one piece okay?
i'll miss one tuesday w/o them =(

nad and aza

sent them to the airport yesterday
flight delayed from 11.45pm then to 12.45am then at last 2.30am
there were tears involved
aza's the worst
we cried as if they were going for 8 yrs

i love my nadear and my zamod

more pictures to be uploaded later

2008-12-08T02:01:00.002+08:00

Gosh. Like seriously..
Grow up u sissy monster
How can u humiliate urslf like that in public.
Lucky me, hanafi came to the rescue.

Thanks hanafi.

Been quite some time since i updated,,
I’ve got nothing to share
i love my best friend and my afn.
Im starting to hate working
Hanafi sure knows why

Im lazy..

2008-11-21T15:13:00.002+08:00

Happy 11th Birthday to
Muhammad Amir Idlan
grow up and please stop eating will you??
study hard and make us proud..
i have faith in you!
mwah!

2008-11-21T01:09:00.018+08:00

a lot of things to update about
so here goes
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17th November

(my big day)
thanks to all for the birthday wishes
i went out with supi but no pictures were taken.
his present for me is a candle light dinner at siloso beach
but i made this up to illustrate what actually happened

so the brown part was my shawl
he brought plates and glasses and candles and even vase
he set everything up while i sat there; blindfolded
just like the fairy tales huh?
(sweet?tell me about it)
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16th November

went to Sentosa with AFN
before that, we shopped at Giant and we got these

The sun was freakishly hot when me, nad& aza 1st arrived.
i had trouble keeping my eyes opened
imagine that!
We managed to sleep for about an hour
but we still had to wait for them to arrive
(and nis "terlepas cakap" on the phone so i was kinda disappointed that she got me excited for nothing )
for more pictures
u can visit nad's and nis's blog

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and ya! azril got me presents..
a bag, dress, belt and ice creams
thanks dear!
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14th November

skipped school with my bacins
atiqah, cheryl, ah vin and jason
went to PS
had lunch in pizza hut
they've already ordered everything before hand
so my job was just to sit down and eat
after the meal, the ladies went to the toilet
then it was the guy's turn
guess what happened next??
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u guessed right..
they returned with an oreo cheesecake(yum yum)
i already saw jason holding the cake before he came in
so i was n0t-so-surprised
but still it was really sweet of them
they told the pizza hut ppl to play the "happy birthday" song
i was really touched
after which,
we watched High School Musical 3 (again)

thanks guys=)
i love my bacins!!

sorry jason
cheesecake anyone?

2008-11-14T00:34:00.007+08:00

(grabbed from nad's blog)

NADNALYQINAFI and AFN
for the first time ever
all for nad

so here goes

aza and i met at 7.00 to reserve nad's ice cream cake
we collect it at 7.40
we then met kin and went to her hse
met the rest an hour later (cake melting)
surprised her at her doorsteps (cake still melting)
blindfolded her and walked to Fushan where NADNALYQINAFI are
it was their(nadnalyqinafi) turn to surprise her
there were fireworks and finally we get to eat the cake

2008-11-13T16:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST BEST FRIEND!
i really treasure our 6 yrs of friendship

2008-11-10T02:15:00.005+08:00

went to watch MEGA PERDANA just now. and i wasted 30 bucks on tickets
why??
coz my favorite team didn't win
but nevertheless
i have pictures
just a few
upload more next time